a good day

I had a fantastic day on Friday! Yes, it's Sunday, but I still think about that day when JB slept in his bassinet between all his feeds. THe only downside is he only sleeps 2.5 hour stints 'cos it's so stinking HOT!!!! 43 degree days consecutively for three days. I want to slap those people who deny global warming is not happening. Grr!! Meanwhile, the northern hemisphere is freezing their butts off!!!

So... what did I do whilst JB was asleep? Me, at home, on a weekday with not much "work" to do? I made myself a nice lunch of ham and cheese, rearranged some furniture (see last post), and did some ironing.

Almost a desperate housewife... minus the desperate. Maybe I get slightly desperate to speak to someone by 5pm, but that's to be expected I guess.

Consciously trying to make some headway into knitting C's shrug, in time for her birthday. 18 days to go... arrgh, no pressure.

xx

The quiet corner

. to read
.. to knit
... to nurse
.... to connect
..... to reflect
...... to find some peace after an insane day

p/s: I finally have the time to turn the house into a home... slowly, but surely.

x

my son...

He coos
He smiles...when you least expect it
He cries (oh how he cries)
He startles

He sleeps in my arms all day long....

p/s: now he's crying again.

love & generosity

I read today that gratitude promotes positive emotions, which promotes well being. I feel grateful everyday; for the extreme generosity of all those around us (totally unexpected, and we are SO grateful). All the love we have received and felt from family & friends around us the last 6 weeks have been overwhelming. And I feel so blessed that I have all of you around me. Maybe I have accumulated enough good karma afterall :)

Thank you for your time, your gifts, your well wishes & all your invaluable advise.

xx

peace - the flipside

Chaos.

That's how the day has ended - at least on the inside that's how I feel. How does one not feel like a bad mother if they can't console their crying child? Yes, I know it's perfectly normal. But it doesn't make me feel any better.

x

peace

It's Monday morning. I'm sitting next to my husband, catching up on my blog reading and doing some knitting. No, knitting no longer makes me want to retch. I knew it'll right itself once Junior Burger came along. Speaking of JB - he's fast asleep in his bassinet, and I'm waiting for him to wake up for his next feed. He's gone past his designated 2.5 hour feed, but everyone tells me "let sleeping babies lie". And lately, any sleep during the day by the boy is good.

So meanwhile, I wait. And surrender to the fact that life and all its going-ons can wait a while...

This is bliss, besides cuddling next to my beloved and smelling JB's hair.

x

Of many minds

This mama business is harder than I anticipated. Between all the feedings and ass wiping, I've hardly had time to look at my surroundings. As for being... oh, I'm being. A mum to a newborn. Today was the first really hot summer day; we had the a/c cranked on for half a day, but Junior Burger hardly slept a wink. Hence lots of crying, fussing, and general carrying on (and carrying him about).

But I love him.... I love him, I love him, I love him. Period.

All I have to learn now is to let go... of the things I cannot change, cannot do. They will all just need to wait.