"Everything is going to be okay."
That's what I was whispering in my son's ear as I was trying to calm him down at his usual 'unsettled' period this evening. True enough, after 15 minutes of unconsolable crying, he calmed down and is now happily snoozing on my beloved's chest. What a great chest that is, he's had (and will have) many a good sleeps there. My beloved has taken to call our son Junior Burger, and it's stuck.
As I venture into the new year, I am me, but not quite me... I am now a mother and I am responsible for someone. There are many times during the day when I flit between extreme joy and anticipation to what lays ahead for my new family and an anxious fear of what I do not know, am yet to know. I wonder if I'll be a good parent, whether I'll still be there for my friends, be the lover and friend my husband and I were before. The answer to all the above is probably yes and no. Possibly the scariest thing for me is that life as I know it no longer looks the same; nor does it hold the same appeal. Yet, I don't quite know how to move forward. And then I realise... the whole point is that I don't know. That this is a journey I've never experienced before. And I should just surrender...
See you in the new year - be safe, be well. Much love xxx
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hi ling,
so nice to read how you're doing and coping with motherhood.
So brave of u too! Here we all are in our little worlds, extending childhoodness and selfishness... there u are taking it in ur stride like the cool mama u are:) u'r going strong babe!
it's so nice to read how being a parent is one of the most uncertain jobs ever. i suppose that's the real beauty of life at every stage we're in:D
hi ling,
so nice to read how you're doing and coping with motherhood.
So brave of u too! Here we all are in our little worlds, extending childhoodness and selfishness... there u are taking it in ur stride like the cool mama u are:) u'r going strong babe!
it's so nice to read how being a parent is one of the most uncertain jobs ever. i suppose that's the real beauty of life at every stage we're in:D
xo Mel
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