Muso

I think everyone who's been within my vicinity the last couple of years know I absolutely love Ben Lee, the musician. He's that quirky, curly-haired man-kid who looks more 17 than 30. Well, anyway, I fell in love with Ben's music after he discovered his spirituality. The music he made after that speaks to me, about me. As one article I read yesterday said, and I quote, "Ben loves an epiphany". I discovered that I loved that too, only Ben articulates it alot better.

I got married to my beloved with Ben singing "Love Me Like The World Is Ending", I dance endlessly with JB to Ben's "Awake Is The New Sleep" album; perhaps secretly hoping that JB would filter all that into his subconsious. Like gambling everything for love, waiting for life to begin, being open-hearted, learning to give joy. Ultimately that's what Ben is singing about - giving joy. And I read yesterday that he's recently gotten married too, how lovely!

His new album Rebirth of Venus is out on February 10 '09. I cannot wait.

word up

So I have a wonderful friend who writes me mail. Yes, handwritten mail, signed, sealed & delivered. And to this date, I've written two back to her - one of which got lost in the post (damn you POS Laju!), and the other written to her during my honeymoon (this sounds surrepticiously like cheating doesn't it? :) ). My beloved doesn't mind, in fact, he might even be a little excited *grin* Anyway, that letter is still sitting on my top drawer. Now that I have a return address, I am finally posting it. And hope it doesn't get lost again.

So this is my response to you, my dear friend. Thank you/un millón de gracias... not just for the effort, but mainly for thinking of me. It's nice to be thought of. I think of you often too, you will just have to believe me.

(This is not a reply, mainly a big thank you - longwinded mail in scrawly handwriting will ensue with earnest!).

xx

a good day

I had a fantastic day on Friday! Yes, it's Sunday, but I still think about that day when JB slept in his bassinet between all his feeds. THe only downside is he only sleeps 2.5 hour stints 'cos it's so stinking HOT!!!! 43 degree days consecutively for three days. I want to slap those people who deny global warming is not happening. Grr!! Meanwhile, the northern hemisphere is freezing their butts off!!!

So... what did I do whilst JB was asleep? Me, at home, on a weekday with not much "work" to do? I made myself a nice lunch of ham and cheese, rearranged some furniture (see last post), and did some ironing.

Almost a desperate housewife... minus the desperate. Maybe I get slightly desperate to speak to someone by 5pm, but that's to be expected I guess.

Consciously trying to make some headway into knitting C's shrug, in time for her birthday. 18 days to go... arrgh, no pressure.

xx

The quiet corner

. to read
.. to knit
... to nurse
.... to connect
..... to reflect
...... to find some peace after an insane day

p/s: I finally have the time to turn the house into a home... slowly, but surely.

x

my son...

He coos
He smiles...when you least expect it
He cries (oh how he cries)
He startles

He sleeps in my arms all day long....

p/s: now he's crying again.

love & generosity

I read today that gratitude promotes positive emotions, which promotes well being. I feel grateful everyday; for the extreme generosity of all those around us (totally unexpected, and we are SO grateful). All the love we have received and felt from family & friends around us the last 6 weeks have been overwhelming. And I feel so blessed that I have all of you around me. Maybe I have accumulated enough good karma afterall :)

Thank you for your time, your gifts, your well wishes & all your invaluable advise.

xx

peace - the flipside

Chaos.

That's how the day has ended - at least on the inside that's how I feel. How does one not feel like a bad mother if they can't console their crying child? Yes, I know it's perfectly normal. But it doesn't make me feel any better.

x